1. An Earth Dweller’s Return 1:03
2. Here & Now 4:47
3. In My Dreams With You 5:00
4. Still My Bleeding Heart 6:01
5. Sex & Religion 4:24
6. Dirty Black Hole 4:27
7. Touching Tongues 5:33
8. State Of Grace 1:41
9. Survive 4:46
10. Pig 3:36
11. The Road To Mt. Calvary 2:34
12. Deep Down Into The Pain 8:01
13. Rescue Me Or Bury Me 8:23

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Here & Now
Lyrics by Steve VaiHere we stand
As time keeps turning
Near and far
The fires are burning

The endless passion
For a cause
We will take an action

I’m not a savior
I’m not a king
There’s only one voice in your head
But I feel your anger
I speak your peace
Freedom time is here
So are you ready for the
Here & Now

The soul needs baring
Bring new life
To a world worth sparing

I’m not a prophet
I’m not a prince
The ego dies with the flesh
You are the garden
I am the seed
Harvest time is here
But tell me are you ready for the
Here & Now


One for all
Time is fleeting
Hear the call
Our world is bleeding

There are no saviors
There are no kings
The power lies in your hands
So you be the fire
The light without heat
Precious time is here
So tell me are you ready for the
Here & Now


In My Dreams With You
Lyrics by Steve Vai and Desmond Child

I’m watchin’ you
I’m wantin’ you
But you turn away
I’d crawl through broken glass to you
But it wouldn’t pay
You take me for a fool
But if you only knew
What I do in my dreams with you

You’re so cold and critical
And baby that’s too bad
So my reality will have to come to me in my dreams

I know that you belong to me every night
You suddenly appear in my eyes
It happens when I sleep
It isn’t right
What I do in my dreams with you

I love the way you come to me every night
My fantasies are real and they never lie
If you only knew
What I do in my dreams with you yeah
It isn’t right
Lord knows that it isn’t right

The world can make you cynical
With all its love and pain
But I don’t have to carry
The weight of the world


Baby don’t wake me
Let me take you on an endless journey
We touch
And the softest kiss explodes with lust
It’s real
And you can’t deny the heat you feel
And if I die before I wake baby that’s all right





Still My Bleeding Heart
Lyrics by Steve Vai

A child to a boy
From a boy to a man
Pride growing stronger
Reaching his victories

He speaks no lies
He fights his cause
He judges not the scavengers
That persecute humanity

Fate does call
And the sickness falls
Lights of life dim down
Fear like an alien comes to view
But with words like the mountains

I’ll die like a soldier in your arms
My will enduring till the pain is gone
Then he looked into his lover’s eyes and he cried
In the name of love
Still my bleeding heart
For the love of God
Still my bleeding heart

His chin he held high
And the courage in his voice
Was like the burning of the sun
But like the breath of an angel

How could this be
I had to scream
Why this innocent young boy
Must suffer so helplessly

But who am I
To challenge God
In the ways of the world
Remain divine mystery

I crumble down
On my hands and knees
While his words fill the air
As he looks into his destiny

I’ll die like a soldier in your arms
I will be brave so you can be strong
And then he looked into his lover’s eyes and he cried
In the name of love
Still my bleeding heart
For the love of God
Still my bleeding heart

And he died like a soldier in his lover’s arms
Brave as a hero in a blood red war
And his final words as he reached for the stars

In the name of love
Still my bleeding heart
Be well my love
Still my bleeding heart


Sex & Religion
Lyrics by Steve Vai

Repent, repent, repent ye sinners –

What do you think you got
When you thought you had a lot
But all your feelings are dead?
And who do you think you are
When you’re reaching for the stars
But all your feelings are dead?

Must you make a decision
Between sex and religion
Why can’t you love God in your bed?

Well, Jesus Christ
Is in your bed tonight
To bring you back from the dead

How are you gonna fight
For what you think is right
If all your feelings are dead?

And what can you know of love,
From the eyes of a child to the heavens above
When all your feelings are dead?

It’s a tragic condition
Sex and religion
Makin’ a manic mess in your head

Jesus Christ
Is in your bed tonight
To bring you back from the dead
Jesus Christ
Or any son of the heatless light
When all your feelings are dead


I raise my hand high up into the air
Get down on my knees
And then I start a-prayin’
When love walks in
My body begins
I feel my promised land comin’
But I gotta go to hell now
And those creatures
Evangelist preachers
The ones that take money
For the promise of hope
Well, they are dangerous
I’m not dangerous
Brain washing us
And we’re not gonna take it

I just wanna know
Oh Lord how is it so
How is it that you can take my sins away?

Oh Lord tell me
So I can see the light again
I don’t think anybody can take my sins away

But how can the truth be known
If we got little black holes in our souls
And all our feelings are dead?

Are we imprisoned by sex and religion
Or is God the one that’s trapped in our mess?

So remember folks
When you kneel to pray
Blow a little kiss to the hypocrites
Good God knows when you turn the other cheek
Which direction you’re pointing it



Dirty Black Hole
Lyrics by Steve Vai

Creeping cross the canvass of color
Crawling in a cold delight
Bittersweet perversions
Paint their picture cross my precious sky
And it’s all I’ve been searching for

Wretched is the filth
That grinds the holy with its doubt
Embrace its heart and tear it out

Reach into the fire
See if you can feel my soul
Burning with desire
To be free from this dirty black hole

Can you bring me liberation?
Do you know the depth of my obscenities?

Love is lost, love is cold
Love is sick, love is dead
When love is in the shadows of insanity
And it’s all I’ve been searching for

Cursed are the bastard sons of stupidity
Grind that knife and slash their life
And it’s all I’ve been searching for

Greater is the greatness
Gained through humility
Close your eyes
Step inside

Reach into the fire
See if you can feel my soul
Burning with desire
To be free from this dirty black hole



Lyrics by Steve Vai

Get ready for your life
Won’t you take your place in line
You may close your eyes if you please

Try to keep it clean
There’s so many here you see
Everybody needs to get by

And if you fall on your face on the way
You’ll get it together someday

Like the sun in the sky
We fall and we will rise
Helping each other survive
Just like the animals
We need to carry on
Or how will we ever survive?

Prejudice is pain
Just like poison in your veins
Burning up your hope and your strength

Freedom you will find
In your spirit and your mind
Nothing can ever take that away

And when your castles of sand melt in the sea
Mountains will move with your faith



Lyrics by Steve Vai and Devin Townsend


Why try to hide?
Runnin’ ain’t about to gonna do
Anything for you my little one…

Ooh they try to get inside of me
Why do they bother anyway?
We mustn’t worry, anything…

Tell me what you see
Pig…are they here?
I’ll rip and slaughter he
Who takes my pig away from me…

Here the little piggy go…pig!
Live in muck, I love my pig!
Those filthy little lovers…piggy pigs!

See my big panic!

Sicker than I’ve ever been
When I see myself inside of you
But I love you, my crude flesh
Stain my tongue with your mess

Suckle, suckle…
Oh gross, it’s the roast
Here the little piggy go…pig!
Live in muck, I love my pig!
Those filthy little lovers…piggy pigs!

I’ll save you



Down Deep Into The Pain
Lyrics by Steve Vai

So naive, so innocent
Thrust in a world too intense
Flesh is weak but the soul is strong
And you will bleed but you’ll carry on

Yes you need your pain
Life is pain
I could hold your hand
But you must take your pain

I don’t need sacrifice, I don’t need advice
This hurt surrounds me like a dissonance
Anger is power
I use it to protect myself from insanity

You gotta go down deep down into the pain
Let it purge your soul like flesh to a razor blade
Dig down deep into the pain
Surrender surrender
Drift into euphoria

Time may never heal the wounds
Hearts bleed hard even the sun cries moon
Fate is tragic just for heaven’s sake
The good Lord giveth and taketh away

‘Cause you need your pain
God gave us pain
I can hold you in my arms
But I can’t take away your pain

I am not long for this world
Please save me from myself and my discipline
Lashing out with tight fists in despair
My plight is running from reality

Put yourself down deep into the pain
Embrace the bliss of pure sensation
You can’t escape from ultimate pain
So let your senses drift into euphoria

Blood is thickest when love is bold
But blood runs thin when the heart grows cold

So you need your pain, we all need pain
We were born into this world
To feel the joy of all our pain


The falling will be gentle and soothing but the awakening will be as riveting as an explosion. Eyes open to total darkness, body floating in encompassing tranquility, and then the voice came.

“Hear this voice and know that it will be with you always”.

Phantoms of opulent auras emblazed in a repulsively lush turmoil of incomprehensible vastness, dance in a sea of timeless infinity.

Is this the voice of my God?

This is the voice of liberation.

Man, you’ve got to be kidding me.

Go forth and rise to life rise
You will have the freedom to think
And choose as you wish

What do I choose?

You choose in the moment
Your life will be shaped around your choices
And the fight is on
Every minute of every day
Every action in every way
Is every creature’s expression to
Be one with its creator
From a simple prayer to a senseless murder

Where do I find you when I need you?

You will search and you will question.
Worship me in your joy and curse me in your pain.
You will fight, kill and love in my name
But I have no name
Always keep in your thoughts that life is good
But do not fear death
For I am closer to you than your very own breath
And I love you
And I want you to know me
Now beautiful life awaits you
And when I count to 3
You will awake and you will remember everything I’ve said
1, 2, 3



Rescue Me Or Bury Me
Lyrics by Steve Vai

Summer nights such lonely times
This memory does bleed
I need you in my life again

Fantasies release me
From the bondage of my fate
The days pass like the falling rain

Your eyes reflect like mirrors
The beauty in your soul
But anger shatters precious glass

Can’t you recall the intimate
Secrets that we truly shared
The faith and trust we swore would always last

I only have myself to blame
You know it takes my breath away
To see you cry

To love I implore, I scream in the air
Claw at my chest, rip out my hair
Embrace me or let my spririt die

Rescue me or bury me
Rescue me or bury me

Time is like a prison cell
For those whose crime is loneliness
When freedom’s banging at their door

When all has been said and done
You must decide swallow your pride and
Reach out and take these hands forevermore

Rescue me or bury me
Rescue me or bury me



Just Cartilage (Japanese Bonus Track)
Lyrics by Steve Vai and Devin Townsend

Strength pose
End all
Of the same
Just leave it alone
Talk soft, thick and warm
And I’ll paint myself all smiles
For you to hold so close

Piston, in constant maintenance
So, swallow that cynicism boy
It’s ruining my air boy
I’d be sleeping with it now
If you hadn’t bit it’s wrist to the marrow

Christ, it lies on the ground
Face down and bleeding
I know you won’t have to tell me
All that you’ve found if it’s…
Just cartilage
I won’t be there

Shake your head… no… because
It’s beyond the wall
And it’s beyond them all
And to listen to you
Is to bring the bastard close
To the damn thing

Christ, it lies on the ground
Face down it bled away
And you didn’t tell me all that you found was
Just cartilage

Holy shit man!

After the success of Passion and Warfare, there was pressure to make a more mainstream record. But, instead of touring to support PAW and developing a concert audience for the future, then going in and making another record, I opted to take a bunch of pre-adolescent kids and spend 18 solid months of 15-hour days on making a record. The band broke up shortly after the record was released…So now the next record was supposed to be so important. It turned out to be a hard record to make. There was the concept of putting this band together with all monster musicians. It worked in theory, but not in practice. I was hoping everybody could contribute their performance expertise while I sort of guided the band in the direction that I thought the music should go. They were very talented people that had definite ideas of the music they liked to play, and it all clashed dramatically.

I was not ready for a band. You see, usually the idea of a band is to get together with people who could contribute their ideas and talents in a healthy exchange. With players like Terry Bozzio, T.M. Stevens and Devin Townsend, in order to have a band there needs to be an unconditional acceptance of everybody else’s contribution. I was not ready for that kind of commitment on my part. Although it may have seemed unfair to the others, there were definite ideas on which way I wanted to go with the music.

It was a conscious decision to make such a radical departure from Passion and Warfare with Sex & Religion. Most fans were expecting another CD similar to PAW but… surprise! I’m still stunned from the whiplash and beating I received from the press.

It’s funny though because there are actually people who feel Sex & Religion is the most important record in their life and that it changed their world. From the letters we receive, it appears that more people each day are discovering it’s mesmerizing peculiarity.

It was a real physiological metamorphosing period. There were outside influences that I let get too close to my secret garden. It seemed that right after the success of Passion And Warfare, I found myself in an alien frame of mind as the wheels of karma were weaving their indefatigable voodoo.

From the time I started the Bad 4 Good project, a sort of downward spiral started to transpire. Bogus and pathetic lawsuits, bad real estate investments with people who I could at best consider criminals, the disillusionment of the creation of a band, listening to negative type music and letting too many people get involved with my creative decision making, touring with people that were bored and miserable with the situation, the falling out of dear friends and the loss of Frank Zappa, were some of the situations that passed during this period. There are scars from those growing pains.

Then there was that fateful day we played The Tonight Show with Jay Leno. Nothing felt right and I went against my feeling on almost every issue. Right before we took to the stage I was on the phone settling a painful and costly litigation. That night I sat in my living room and watched the show. After our performance it all came to me. I saw every blunder I made and it all stemmed from me letting my ego go against my better judgment. I fell to the floor, curled into a ball and thought, “What have I done?” It was a low point.

After that tour, I arrived home from the airport, sat in a chair and in some kind of symbolic ritual, cut off all those knotty and putrid dreadlocks that were pulling at my skull. Then got directly back on a plane and flew to Tahiti for 10 days, ahhhh!

All was not catastrophic though. There are many elements of that whole period that hold merit. Sex & Religion contains intense emotionally manipulated sonic experiences that needed to be released. I always felt strongly about the music and I loved touring on it.

There was the opportunity to work with some brilliant people too. Devin Townsend (singer on S&R) is one of the most amazing and uniquely talented tormented souls making music today. Very little of his true brilliance comes through on S&R. His solo music holds brutal treasures. Check out Strapping Young Lad or the ominous album Ocean Machine. He is intense in the total meaning of the word. I believe he’s a genius in areas that have not been discovered yet. He’s quite grotesquely entertaining too (if your an instigator like me)….

That period also saw the birth of my second son, Fire Vai. Like our first son Julian and my wife Pia, there are no words to describe their preciousness. A family’s health and happiness is the most excellent blessing that the lords of karma can bestow.